The year has started off with enthusiasm and good energy. We had three of our granddaughters stay overnight on New Year's Eve, went to see Blue Man Group with Krista, and celebrated her and Mike's birthdays. The weather has been harsh at times, with ice and snow and sharp cold, but it's been a series of good challenges. Clearing away the snow and ice, and even the fallen branches from last month's major ice storm, has required hard physical work, leaving us tired and satisfied.
I was expecting that the good energy was going to continue as I returned to college to take a course on legal research. The plan was that the course would help me get ready to assist an attorney friend with research for patent, trademark, and copyright applications. That was the plan and, like many plans, it was overcome by events. The events in this instance came from the reality that, although I'm a lot better than I had been, I'm still susceptible to being blind-sided by symptoms of depression - sadness, weepiness, indecision and confusion, and low energy. I went to class and did well, enjoying the subject material and participating in discussions. I'd then leave class and feel the energy just drain away, as though someone had slit the side of a bag of rice. After a couple of classes and a continuation of the symptoms, I concluded that now's not yet the time to take this course and, by extension, not yet the time to be planning to return to work.
Already I feel a bit better. I'll be in touch with my doctors all the same, to see if I need a change in medications or other treatment. Marley and I had a nice walk to Worcester this afternoon, enjoying the sunshine. We have a storm forecast for tomorrow, followed by several cloudy days. It's back to the basics. I have many, many blessings in my life, so setting aside this one adventure leaves room for some of the other goodies to come in.
I was expecting that the good energy was going to continue as I returned to college to take a course on legal research. The plan was that the course would help me get ready to assist an attorney friend with research for patent, trademark, and copyright applications. That was the plan and, like many plans, it was overcome by events. The events in this instance came from the reality that, although I'm a lot better than I had been, I'm still susceptible to being blind-sided by symptoms of depression - sadness, weepiness, indecision and confusion, and low energy. I went to class and did well, enjoying the subject material and participating in discussions. I'd then leave class and feel the energy just drain away, as though someone had slit the side of a bag of rice. After a couple of classes and a continuation of the symptoms, I concluded that now's not yet the time to take this course and, by extension, not yet the time to be planning to return to work.
Already I feel a bit better. I'll be in touch with my doctors all the same, to see if I need a change in medications or other treatment. Marley and I had a nice walk to Worcester this afternoon, enjoying the sunshine. We have a storm forecast for tomorrow, followed by several cloudy days. It's back to the basics. I have many, many blessings in my life, so setting aside this one adventure leaves room for some of the other goodies to come in.
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